Monday, October 7, 2013

Prove them wrong

Wanting to be a creative person and have that as some semblance of a career is an odd thing. Maybe not to everyone but to a lot of people I find myself surrounded by.

"You are leaving your job here because you want to do what?" "You are going to school for what now?" "Why are you spending your time doing that project?" "How are you going to make money doing something like that?"

Whenever I am faced with questions like that--it happens a lot these days--I tend to walk away feeling a little defeated. The life and job I have now is so different from what I want for myself. I am starting to really wrap my head around these ideas of a creative life and it is a little distressing when I am greeted with self doubt by others. What if they are right?

And then, I step back and tell that stupid little self-doubting Annie in my head to put a sock in it because sometimes people suck (eloquent as I could put it). Living a creative life is all I can think about. And some day I can make it happen for myself. I have a family who is amazingly supportive--how many parents do you know that are supportive of their kid going to school for art and then giving them support to go back to school to do it again? From what I have seen it is few and far between. Matt has been bending over backwards to cook dinner and so do many little things every day so I can focus on school. Why wouldn't I push myself to make this life work, not only for myself but for those people in my life that want this for me too? Maybe I won't be the next Anna Rifle or whoever but if I can at least one day buy a little house with a yard for Rufio and a sun filled room for me to work, I feel like I would have accomplished what I wanted to. 

Go do it. Prove them wrong. And yourself right. 

1 comment:

  1. hey nice post meh, I love your style of blogging here. this post reminds me of an equally interesting post that I read some time ago on Daniel Uyi's blog: Get A Girl .
    keep up the good work friend. I will be back to read more of your posts.